I am not that

Not that

I am not

that

person overpowered

I am not

that child controlled

I am

not who you

abused

I am not the

person who was

not heard

not believed

I am

not

self-hating, absorbing your hate, being

hated I am

not

I am not out of control

I am in there

I am there

I am there when you overpower me

and control and determine

and don't believe and don't listen

and can't

and can't

I am there when you hate yourself

and you hate me

and that teaches me to hate me

I am there

But I am not that

Inside those events, inside

those moments

inside that darkness

I am there

the true Self

I am there

the one who knows

that I don't deserve this

that no one deserves this

that you are not right

that you were wronged

that you are doing wrong

that I deserve to be heard

to be believed

to be trusted

to be loved

to be protected

to be believed

to be believed

I am that

I am believed and protected and loved

And I wait here in this

moment in this darkness, in this

hate

I wait

I wait until I can emerge

Until I can heal

Until I can be heard

and believed

and trusted

and loved

and learn

Learn to love myself

to trust myself

to believe myself

To see in you who I really am

to show you who you really are

because I waited

and emerged

and I am here

you can be here too

I am not that